I always have a bad dream, as if someone was trying to kill me by installing nightmares when I was asleep. I'm sure you will commit suicide if you belong to the characters in my nightmares, unluckily for you if you do because you'll have to deal with zombies, ghosts, vampires, dead people, blood and body parts everywhere, death and catastrophe. Luckily for me because I'm not dead yet even though i often suffer nightmares, the deadliest experience I remember was having it by 1 week consecutively 7 days or more.

Today, i dreamtof volcano, i wonder where the hell does it came from, because it was right in the middle of an urban area, not so far from my house. Its very dark everywhere, I see gray shaded houses, I was trying to secure my family for the worst that will happen in just a seconds, because it is totally give up smoke and dust. Then seconds elapse thunder, lava , pyroclastic flow, volcanic hazards killed many people, i saw it happen. The event which shocked me more was that the lahar was nearly two houses away from mine, ...it was erratic and the speed was monstrous..... thank God that wake me up early or else i belong to the dead characters...

Under wiki pages theres a science link that interest me to view, i had read few comments and I was shocked they call people who believe God created all, .... stupid. Again, I don't feel in myself that I have "strong" believed that there's God. In our time, science and religion co-exist, and we can't decide what to choose. Informations are all over and its too complex. I in my own, cant explain for myself the relevant link of science and religion. If I have the power to speak, I will tell everyone that we dont yet come to a true knowledge, all we have is science which is human knowledge, a knowledge of God is the One which we human cannot yet comprehend. People conclude they has already the knowledge about everything and we forget the Eternal Creator, science make them believe because of the proof and thats why we don't take a more closer view or take action to know more every bit of it, the knowledge we had is just a piece of sand from the shore.

We shouldnt forget that humans has limits. Maybe science was made by God to create everything, think of a pattern of our life, pattern in everything, the cycles, who engineered this? Elementals?

Its 1:58 AM cant sleep, I'm alone in my room ....my eyes still awake, commanding me to go toroof top to watch the sky and some passerbyes.... its interesting, but i found sleeping comfortable.... thats why i remain in my room turn on the computer instead, view emails, watch someone who has cam in yahoo messenger till i feel heaviness in my head,..... i really hate to be alone...... no partner means no fun....

The procedures were send by my friend through email....I decided to paste it here,  I think this first aid might help those who has heart problems. 

HOW TO SURVIVE A HEART ATTACK
WHEN ALONE":

My goodness its 12:58 AM here in the Phil, I cant sleep, i always feel guilty about what I have done with my free hours everyday, like today...so wasted...tommorrow is another stupid day,....what else should I do, I can't do productive things......no changes...my life is still in ruin.... .all my life I'm waiting for some(thing/one) which/who can rescue me in this stupid life I have now, so..soo..soo frustrating, i'm trying to entertain myself but I'm still sad and incomplete... This blog is another entertainment for me, past time to forget my problems, its 1:03 AM .... ..I'm looking outside my window now, hoping to see something attracts me andf entertain me .... WOW...my life is so productive...thanks to my talents....very useful... i'm so happy....Im pathetic..so pathetic...